Pastor John Collins remembers our beloved Lloyd Porter:
I went to a friend’s funeral today. I can call him a friend, even though I don’t know I was ever much of one. But I am sure he would have given me the shirt off his back, or at least one of the old flannels he used to wear.
His name was Lloyd Porter. We first met when he started attending a home Bible study in my house in the early eighties. I was new in the Lord and eager to establish my credentials as a leader in a new and vibrant church that was filled with young people, Harvest Christian Fellowship. Lloyd was well into middle age and a former drug and alcohol user.
I suppose we couldn’t have been more polar extremes. My hope for the future was to become a pastor and to go on staff at Harvest. Lloyd’s hope was to simply put his life back together. And so we began ministry at Harvest on parallel but distinctively different tracks.
I absorbed the Bible in massive doses back then, filling up with verses and chasing after theology as if it were the last morsel of bread. Lloyd didn’t absorb the Bible; the Bible absorbed him. Our study group would shred through chapters and books, he’d just marvel at the first truth he saw. It seemed like I was always in a hurry, and Lloyd was satisfied to be in the moment. For me, ministry opportunities lie ahead like mountains to be scaled; Lloyd was content to shake the hand of the next person he met.
You see, by most standards, Lloyd wouldn’t have been considered one of the “in crowd.” He came, quite literally, from the street and the gutter of alcoholism. Somehow, Lloyd came to know Christ way back then, although I cannot ever remember him sharing just how that came to be. He wore thick glasses, black clunky shoes with white socks, shuffled when he walked, suffered from gout, dined on fast food, and, as far as we know, was never married.
When he died, he had no family to mourn him, except those who became his family at Harvest. Despite what life had stacked against him, he was the most faithful attendee to that Bible study in my house in those early days.
Back then, it was hard to hold a conversation with Lloyd because the alcohol and drug abuse had so fogged and clouded his mind. He would halt and stammer and work hard to get just one clear thought out about what he had learned from the Bible. But he would always end a conversation with the phrase, “As the Lord leads.” It was as if that was the ONE thing he was absolutely sure about.
God would lead him. He never stopped saying it. He never stopped believing it. It became his calling card. We used to joke about it among our Bible group and when he would suggest something, we’d say, “As the Lloyd leads.”
He never reveled in his past, never used it as a means of building into a “great testimony” to share. Lloyd just slowly changed. He memorized Scripture, he studied it daily, and he applied it with a simple faith. And over time, Lloyd was transformed from someone who could barely string a sentence together, into a loving man who counseled hundreds and even learned to teach.
Along with his friend George, the two of them headed up a drug and alcohol ministry at Harvest that, at one point, grew to 150 people! He never had a job that we know of, so the church paid him a small sum to help and counsel the down-and-outers and the hurting.
His well ran deep for them. He worked in a small cubicle during the day and answered phones from people calling in for help all around the country, even overseas. He became the “go to” guy for people at Harvest with drug or alcohol addictions. He always patiently applied the gauze of Scripture.
I’ll never forget, those many years ago, a comment that was made one evening during a time of prayer at my home study. A woman who was visiting said she had a prophecy for us. She said that two people from our little Bible study would go on to be a part of a nationally-known ministry and that God was going to use us in ways we couldn’t imagine.
I had the great privilege of being one of those two, being elevated to a place of executive director for Harvest Crusades for Pastor Greg Laurie and the Harvest team, literally traveling the world doing evangelistic crusades. It wasn’t until today, 25 years later, that I realized Lloyd was the other guy!
To many, I was seen as the big shot. He was the guy people thought had no shot at all. I got the big office and company car; he got a cubicle and drove an old green Ford Escort. I always looked upon him with a sense of amusement. He was so content, so without guile. I was so eager, so ambitious to succeed. He was an anchor, clinging hard to the promises of Scripture; I was a flag whipping in the wind of promise.
I loved Lloyd, though to my shame it was from afar. When he first got sick and went into the hospital, I brought him the Bible on tape, figuring that with his failing eyes from diabetes, maybe he’d find it easier listening to the Bible rather than reading it. I should have known that wasn’t Lloyd’s way. His way was to take it in small bites, to chew on it, to rejoice in what few words his eyes would afford him to read. Twenty-five years later, I was still hustling around the Bible, he was still content to let it sink in.
In my youth, I don’t know that I ever truly appreciated Lloyd Porter. Not the way I should have. In his death, I’m remembering much about his life that, like Jesus, was full of grace and truth. He was an example in life and he is an example in death, and his faithfulness has brought new meaning to the phrase we used to chuckle about: “As the Lloyd leads!”
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